i really want to go sit in a booth at the food court with toni
and have her eating kentucky fried chicken french fries
and i'll have my chalupa from tacoa bell.
i'll steal her fries and she'll get mad.
and then she'll say something stupid funny and i'll laugh
and some drink will come out of one of our noses.
then we'll go to the commisary and buy a box of those chocolate roll things
for a buck.
then we'll go to the park and sit on the big red thing and eat them.
or maybe.
i just want to be really bored at home and hear a basketball bouncing in the driveway next door and i'll find some exscuse to go outside and play basketball with john.
and then i'll have to go inside at like 9:30 cause i do have a curfew and he'll make fun of me.
or maybe.
it would be wednesday and i'm at the elementary school office with bee and we're playing some games on the computer and she's forcing me to listen to country music and i'll end up admitting its not horrible.
and then we'll walk over to the church and run around or sit in the elevator.
or throw eachother off the hill. [hahaha. i hate that game. ]
or we'll go in the bathroom with emily, caroline, jaden, and us and we'll play that really fun game were we scream alot.
ahah.
and then we'll eat that really good pie and go to class.
or perhaps
i'll just realize i'm oregon. and forget everything that ever happened and try to make it work.
which it won't work...

poem.

The pain you bring
the secret whispering
your hypocritical behavoir
its not in my favor
no words can defy.
the way you make me cry.
as hope comes you tear it away
i can't even listen to you today
your lies of, "those words aren't mine"
i hit the ground harder and harder each time.
when understanding is tougher than believing
your breaking, making, and taking me
who am i now for i cannot see
i need to know that i will not let your cruel words
make me
i am what i what i want to be.

Poems:

okay here are some of my poems
i wrote these all by myself.
i don't care if you think they're bad.
i like them and they express me
so here are my best two:
cloud of confusion
regrets piling up
doubt filling in
hope running off
nothing good coming in
you and me forever to be?
not so soon
so speed it up...
..no slow it down
glances across the room
mystery in the air
pounding heart within my chest.
is this for the best?
thoughts racing
pencils breaking
get me away from this place i once played.
can this be for real?
take me or leave me
but, please don't break me.


The Two of Us
the truth of youit isn't blue
you and me
its what you can't see.
we know its there.
thats all we need.
you are the one thing that completes me.

TODAY ;;

i've gotten OH SO MUCH.
done.
on my speach! YAY MEE.
anyways. thats like the best part of the day.
i got 242 on my TESSA test thingy.. i thought it was easy too bad i didn't get them ALL right.
oh well i didn't over exceeding which is FINE by me :]
i'm pretty confussed right now, but thats not for you to worry about.
just when drama is over. lets start it all back up again
& this time its for the better. ...
or is it?

nighterzlovess.
i've got ohsomuch more to do.

Welcome to my world.

ciao bella!

guess what?
someones got a blog, and that someone is me!
okay.
so basically i got the idea from katerrs cause she got a blog like 2 days ago...
&i thought it was really cool.
[peechykeenlove @ blogspot. com <--- check her out she's a "cool kidd"]
anyhow.
so i'm audder.
kinda like otter, but not.
i got the nickname from my friend denise.
who lives about a billion miles away in Sicily, Italy with a wonderful view of Mount Etna on a super secure Military Base. The place i once called home.
I move alooottt, but now i've settled down until college in Oregon
l[not my choice]l
i personally do not like the rain or the cold and would much rather be in the italian heat.

XOXO - auddero.